The last post

This will be my last post on this Blog. For many reasons my life has and will change incredibly over the last weeks. And it will change even more in the coming months and years. It has changed so much that the title I had for this blog has become more and more irrelevant.

So I have started a new blog.

If you want to know , then ask and I will tell where to find it.

In the mean time I ask that you pray for me. Pray for me and my wife and son as things tumble and change around us. Pray for God's grace and mercy and His love to to keep us safe and close to Him.

Thank you to those who have read my blogs and hung in with my gripes and bitching and moaning. May God bless you all.

Hanno

On the mend

I have been back in theater yesterday where they drained the abscess again.

And I must say , things are looking slightly better today. I am not in so much pain and I can nearly walk normally again.

This is just as well , as I am self employed and I have not worked or earned any money for about a month now. The bills are pilling up and I seriously need to get some work in , so I can sort all of this out.

So pray that I will heal quickly from here on and pray that I will be able to raise an income shortly. Ant thank God for the fact that He looked after me , and that at least he hospital bill seems to be sorted out. Now I just need to pay the dr's . But God has been good to me. Thank Him for that.

I am sick in bed

It started a month ago. I felt a pain in my groin and my testicles were sore. I stuck it out until thursday when the pain and discomfort really got me worried.

Made an appointment and went to see the dr. who diagnosed me with a prostate infection. He gave me some antibiotics and sent me home.

I went home and over the rest of the week and the weekend , things got progressively worse. Monday morning saw me back in the surgery. Dr took a look and referred me to a surgeon. The surgeon took a look and told me that an abcess was forming in my scrotum and that i should take other antibiotics and come see him on Wednesday.

By Wednesday my scrotum was swollen to the size of two large Avo's and you would have been hard pressed to cover it all with a decent sized pudding bowl. And the pain was excruciating.

So the dr makes a call to the medical aid and gets authorization to book me into the private hospital do an op.

To make a long story longer, the medical aid is under administration and they phone back to say that the authorization is cancelled. Back and forth we argue until eventually the surgeon books me into theater for an op in the provincial hospital.

After the op to drain the abcess I stay in hospital for a week. Then I stay in bed at home for a week.

And now I am still very sore and very swollen , and if things do not change over the weekend I will have to go back to the surgeon on monday to see if they can help me.

In the mean time I can not work and I have had to give photoshoots away. I have a very lucrative shoot coming up on Saturday and I really need the money, so let us hope and pray that things clear up and I heal before Saturday.

McGuyver the Human , I mean cat.

I decided to post a picture of my cat on the cameraforum. This is a copy of the post that I made there.

Took the living room curtains and draped them over a pillow on my desk.
Then setup a 550 ex flash on a stand to camera right and pointed it up
at the ceiling.

went and fetched cat. put cat on pillow. stroke cat. leave cat and pick up camera.
put down camera and fetch cat from under livingroom couch.

Put
cat on pillow. stroke cat. pick up camera while stroking cat. Fire of a
couple of out of focus photos so cat can get used to camera.

kneel to photograph cat. put down camera. Fetch cat from under master bedroom bed. Put cat on pillow. Stroke cat.

kneel to photograph cat. put down camera. fetch cat from under dining table. Put cat on pillow. Stroke cat.

kneel to photograph cat.

get of two photos of which one is out of focus.

leave cat to run away and give up.

So for all my trouble I have one pic of my cat. But the thing is , he is surely my cat. although Alet and Jaco are tolerated it is me that he is after. He gets into bed under the blankets and crawls in as close as he can to my body. And then he does not move.

and moans if I move him. all in all a very cute cat with bucket loads of character

Spam emails

Recently I have been receiving about two spam emails a day trying to sell me something to enhance my manhood.

Every time the emails arrive with a different sender address and email title.

Both the name and title seem to be words selected at random.

So today I received one with a title called : promiscuous hymnist

And I just had to laugh.

But then I thought. Wouldn't this be a cool title for a blog. or website ?

The question however is : What would a promiscuous hymnist be ? Someone who write lots of different hymns ?

Or someone who writes the same hymn in different styles ?

I am not of the Hymn writing fraternity so I would leave this to someone who is.

My life at the moment..

I am not in a good place at the moment.

I am depressed and not in the mood to do anything. The problem is that this is not the state of mind for someone who works for themselves to be in.

and so everything in my life suffers.

My spiritual life suffers. My relationships with people suffers. My health suffers.

and I am not enjoying being me at the moment.

Pray that this will change. Pray that I will be able to lift my head an carry on.

Who am I ??

One more song that really speaks to me

Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart.

Bridge:
Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again.
Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.


I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.

Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.


I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

I am yours.

Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?
'Cause I am yours.
I am yours.

Song : Who am I
Artist : Cating Crowns

Sometimes

Sometimes when I feel good about myself , God , the world and all else then I want to sing this :

I wish I could crash like the waves
Or turn like the autumn leaves
In effort to praise You

I wish I could smell like the forest
The fragrance lifting a mighty chorus
In effort to praise You
In effort to praise You

Chorus:
But I’m such a limited creature
And my word can only paint so many pictures
But somewhere I think I read that I am

Treasured over all creation
So I know that I must try

I wish I could roll like the thunder
To leave the earth below in wonder
In effort to praise You

I wish I could fall like the summer rain
And every drop would sing Your name
In effort to praise You
In effort to praise You

Gloria, glory in the highest
Forever I will hide myself in Thee

Every breath that I breathe
Every moment in my history

Is an effort to praise You
An effort to praise You

Glory in the highest
Forever I will hide myself in Thee

Oh, Gloria
Glory in excelsis deo

Gloria, gloria, gloria
Gloria, gloria, gloria

The trick is, I guess, to be able to sing this also when I do not feel like this.

Listen to this song here

Song details are :
Gloria
By: Watermark
Album: Watermark
c 1997 Rocketown Music/Sweater Weather Music/ASCAP

More of Jon

I sat and read some more of Jon's stuff.

I love the honesty. I love the challenges it makes me face in my life.

look at this : The rumors about me

or this one :We are the wild places.

if you read nothing else then read this post : Michael Jordan and the Prodigal Son and Me.

Three great new blogs I have found

I am not going to say much, I would much rather that these blogs speak for themselves. In my random surfings (using a nice firefox addon called STUMBLE) I have 'stumbled' accros these 3 blogs written by the same christian guy.

Go take a look

Stuff Cristians like

97 Seconds with God

The Prodigal Jon


brilliant stuff - go take a look