Spam emails

Recently I have been receiving about two spam emails a day trying to sell me something to enhance my manhood.

Every time the emails arrive with a different sender address and email title.

Both the name and title seem to be words selected at random.

So today I received one with a title called : promiscuous hymnist

And I just had to laugh.

But then I thought. Wouldn't this be a cool title for a blog. or website ?

The question however is : What would a promiscuous hymnist be ? Someone who write lots of different hymns ?

Or someone who writes the same hymn in different styles ?

I am not of the Hymn writing fraternity so I would leave this to someone who is.

My life at the moment..

I am not in a good place at the moment.

I am depressed and not in the mood to do anything. The problem is that this is not the state of mind for someone who works for themselves to be in.

and so everything in my life suffers.

My spiritual life suffers. My relationships with people suffers. My health suffers.

and I am not enjoying being me at the moment.

Pray that this will change. Pray that I will be able to lift my head an carry on.

Who am I ??

One more song that really speaks to me

Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart.

Bridge:
Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again.
Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.


I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.

Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.


I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

I am yours.

Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?
'Cause I am yours.
I am yours.

Song : Who am I
Artist : Cating Crowns

Sometimes

Sometimes when I feel good about myself , God , the world and all else then I want to sing this :

I wish I could crash like the waves
Or turn like the autumn leaves
In effort to praise You

I wish I could smell like the forest
The fragrance lifting a mighty chorus
In effort to praise You
In effort to praise You

Chorus:
But I’m such a limited creature
And my word can only paint so many pictures
But somewhere I think I read that I am

Treasured over all creation
So I know that I must try

I wish I could roll like the thunder
To leave the earth below in wonder
In effort to praise You

I wish I could fall like the summer rain
And every drop would sing Your name
In effort to praise You
In effort to praise You

Gloria, glory in the highest
Forever I will hide myself in Thee

Every breath that I breathe
Every moment in my history

Is an effort to praise You
An effort to praise You

Glory in the highest
Forever I will hide myself in Thee

Oh, Gloria
Glory in excelsis deo

Gloria, gloria, gloria
Gloria, gloria, gloria

The trick is, I guess, to be able to sing this also when I do not feel like this.

Listen to this song here

Song details are :
Gloria
By: Watermark
Album: Watermark
c 1997 Rocketown Music/Sweater Weather Music/ASCAP

More of Jon

I sat and read some more of Jon's stuff.

I love the honesty. I love the challenges it makes me face in my life.

look at this : The rumors about me

or this one :We are the wild places.

if you read nothing else then read this post : Michael Jordan and the Prodigal Son and Me.

Three great new blogs I have found

I am not going to say much, I would much rather that these blogs speak for themselves. In my random surfings (using a nice firefox addon called STUMBLE) I have 'stumbled' accros these 3 blogs written by the same christian guy.

Go take a look

Stuff Cristians like

97 Seconds with God

The Prodigal Jon


brilliant stuff - go take a look

Backsliding

It is really amazing how quickly I am capable of losing focus and sliding away from God.

Two weeks ago I was telling my homegroup how I was doing better than ever in my spiritual life and here I am realizing that I have really screwed up and neglected my relationship with God terribly.

And the problem is that it is so difficult to go back and ask forgivingness - again. and again

Not because God is incapable of forgiveness ,but because I struggle to see Him as a loving and caring God who want's to forgive.

I have been busy

In the recent time since my last blog things have been happening rather quickly.

The Photography club that I started in Uitenhage was a huge success.

Some of the clubmembers started posting on the Cameraschool forum that I had on my website

This has since grown and moved to its own website called www.cameraforum.co.za

This means that I have had to start yet another website of my own.

I now manage 5 of my own excluding the blogs.

I must be a sucker for punishment.

I started a blog for my son

My son turned 7 this weekend and I started a blog to post the pictures to.

You can view the blog here

The Methodist church of SA

In a TV commercial for a Audi A3 Sportback the voice over states "I live by Ghandi and Learn by google".

Now while I personally would rather live by Jesus, I do agree that my generation certainly learns by Google. If there is any piece of information that I am looking for, my first attempt to find the info I need is by Google.

And so, wanting to post about the Methodist Church of SA and it's newspaper (the New Dimension) I decided to try and do some research before I open my big mouth. Imagine my surprise at not being able to find one half decent website with some info I can use.

Let us list my searches quickly.

• Save one PDF document about the state of the 'New Dimension', I could find nothing about the New Dimension. No Website. No Email address or contact details. nada. zip. I did find a 2006 post by Digital Dion wanting to post cartoons in the New dimension. And that was still on page one of Google.

• The official MCSA website has buggerall relevant or new on it's site. It has no links to New Dimension.
  

Ok, So what is the bee in my bonnet about the MCSA and New Dimension?

MCSA first :

I am really worried about the state of my Church (the Methodist Church of SA). I am really worried about the fact that a lot of the 'good' white ministers are leaving, the church and or the ministry.

I am really worried about the leadership of my church. I am worried about the fact that the top structure seems to be getting heavier. And that the church seems to be forever looking for new ways to fund this heavy top structure.

I am worried about the strugles for power and the corruption within my church. What ??? Corruption ?? In the Church ??? Please don't insult me by saying that there is no corruption in the church. We all know it is there. Ministers who supposedly don't get stipends, but drive around in fancy German cars. Societies who can not pay their assesments , but whose ministers get R40 000 going away gifts.

I am worried about the fact that white student ministers get suspended or discontinued for trivial matters while black ministers who are not nearly of the same caliber get pushed through the system. In fact , I am worried about the training of our ministers.

And this is where I feel The New Dimension should have come into play.

As a newspaper I feel that the Dimension should have been there to expose the corruption and power struggles. The Dimension should have been there to ask questions about training and ask questions as to why some very good ministers are leaving the church. But alas... "He who pays the piper , calls the tune."

Maybe mr, Stone (editor New Dimension) there is a reason why your reader numbers have fallen from 26000 to 11000. Maybe it is because people don't believe what you are telling them. Maybe it is because your reporting is so obviously biased.

And so , after this long rant , I am still worried about my church. And I wonder when the church is going to split. I wonder when the 'alternate Methodist church' will break away from the mainstream power and money hungry church.

If the alternate Methodist church breaks away , I will be among the first to approve. I suspect that most of the ministers will be white. Ministers who care for the people and who want to get the work done. I suspect that most of the members will be of all races. And please.... This is not a race thing. But it will separate those who are in the ministry because of the calling to care for the people from those who are in the ministry because of the calling of power and status and money.

Please pray for my church. And pray for the ministers who are trying desperately to do God's work in a structure that has long ago missed the true calling of church.